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Why do I write? It'd be much easier to answer that question as a five-paragraph persuasive essay, to be graded on spelling and organization and description by my English teacher or a standardized-testing official. But, well, it wouldn't be the truth, the essence of why I'm here on a Saturday night, stretched out on my stomach with tea candles burning and a radio blaring, my sole companion my pen and paper. I guess what I'm trying to say is that there are many different answers to that question, depending on who is asking. Pick whatever reason you choose, whichever makes you happy. That is the basis of why I'm still here: to make you, the general population, happy.
"Why do you write, Meg?" in the words of a teacher would be answered thus: I write because I like sharing the irreplaceable gift of words with others, particularly with my apparent skill for it. And besides, the earth without art is just eh, and literature is art, yes?
"Meg, why do you write?" in the words of a friend would be answered thus: I write because I'm good at it and it helps me cope. Cope with what, you say? Oh, you know, the usual growing pains of growing up. Nothing really in particular, it just makes me feel better.
"Maggie…tell me…why do you write?" in the words of a shrink would be answered thus: I write because it helps me deal better than the pills you prescribe me. When I get angry, I evaporate in silent steam and tears until the frustration turns inward, when I collapse in a dark place and look in the mirror at the sunken full-moon crazy eyes and scribbled features you call me, and the words come bubbling out but I can't say any of them to anyone, including you - look, you know I don't want to be here - so I write them to myself.
"So Maggie, why do you write?" in the words of a parent would be answered thus: I write because…well…I don't really know…I enjoy it, I guess….
"Magz why do you write?" in the words of you would be answered thus: I write because I lie. I write because I lie and manipulate and think as many steps ahead as I can and almost never really talk to someone, I only ever speak and say the right thing and wait for the right time. I write because there needs to be someone - something - I'm real with, somewhere I can just take the words out of my head and transfer them to my hand and then my paper in my spindly handwriting. I write because words are no longer enough and probably never were and certainly never will be, and I need to express that as well as I can. I write because a really bad eraser, no matter what you say, Emily, is better than no eraser, because at least then you can tell the words aren't supposed to be there. I write because I can't cry when the fault lines are deep on my face and I'm beginning to fall apart at the seams and the only thing holding my rag doll body together is a thin strand of maybe's supported by thick ropes of lies. I write because the best way to keep a secret is to shout it to a not listening and narcissistic world. I write because I'm just a child by law and I'm trying to swallow the whole world with my a.m. meds but I can't seem to force it down my throat, even with the help of my liquid lies and truths and hopes and maturities.
I write because I don't know the difference between who I'm supposed to be and who the fuck I am anymore.
"Why do you write, Meg?" in the words of a teacher would be answered thus: I write because I like sharing the irreplaceable gift of words with others, particularly with my apparent skill for it. And besides, the earth without art is just eh, and literature is art, yes?
"Meg, why do you write?" in the words of a friend would be answered thus: I write because I'm good at it and it helps me cope. Cope with what, you say? Oh, you know, the usual growing pains of growing up. Nothing really in particular, it just makes me feel better.
"Maggie…tell me…why do you write?" in the words of a shrink would be answered thus: I write because it helps me deal better than the pills you prescribe me. When I get angry, I evaporate in silent steam and tears until the frustration turns inward, when I collapse in a dark place and look in the mirror at the sunken full-moon crazy eyes and scribbled features you call me, and the words come bubbling out but I can't say any of them to anyone, including you - look, you know I don't want to be here - so I write them to myself.
"So Maggie, why do you write?" in the words of a parent would be answered thus: I write because…well…I don't really know…I enjoy it, I guess….
"Magz why do you write?" in the words of you would be answered thus: I write because I lie. I write because I lie and manipulate and think as many steps ahead as I can and almost never really talk to someone, I only ever speak and say the right thing and wait for the right time. I write because there needs to be someone - something - I'm real with, somewhere I can just take the words out of my head and transfer them to my hand and then my paper in my spindly handwriting. I write because words are no longer enough and probably never were and certainly never will be, and I need to express that as well as I can. I write because a really bad eraser, no matter what you say, Emily, is better than no eraser, because at least then you can tell the words aren't supposed to be there. I write because I can't cry when the fault lines are deep on my face and I'm beginning to fall apart at the seams and the only thing holding my rag doll body together is a thin strand of maybe's supported by thick ropes of lies. I write because the best way to keep a secret is to shout it to a not listening and narcissistic world. I write because I'm just a child by law and I'm trying to swallow the whole world with my a.m. meds but I can't seem to force it down my throat, even with the help of my liquid lies and truths and hopes and maturities.
I write because I don't know the difference between who I'm supposed to be and who the fuck I am anymore.
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taboo
while we spend our days with lips
like smiling bloody red bananas
lacklustered eyes to the maximum
and feet rhythmically bitch-slapping the earth we used to call
home sweet home
remember when seconds were the
forever always-lasting never-ending
years of our wrinkleless youth
hugging mere dreams labelled as sensory perceptible reality
knowledge was taboo
i want it back
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Hungrier
The trees are turning by and by; we can no longer claim
Innocent-by-stander-ship.
We are participants in this aging process,
So stop bleaching your face, please.
Let it flush and flake out your window.
Tomorrow comes;
Holding hands becomes pretentious.
We are the next generation,
Hurling our arms out of car windows,
Unfurling virgin wings as we pass everything on the interstate.
--
You've got me eating my cheeks
[Inside out]
Filling cavities with blood because
I'm afraid I've forgotten how it feels to swallow.
--
You've got me rubbing your neck,
Just so when I curl to sleep in the backseat,
The residual smell
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kaleidoscope.
Even though it is said that the human eye can see about 16.8 million different colors, we're all pretty much color blind in the end.
Today, I am blue, and you are red; today the fear begins again.
The sky is a milky white and your eyes are an empty grey, but you somehow still manage a smile: this is the first thing I notice. The second is that your shoes are untied, then that your gaze seems unfocused, then that your hair is a disaster, then that your voice sounds like rain and I hate rain.
You catch my stare.
I turn away because I am afraid.
You are uncertainty and unpredictability, and for this, I hate you; the unexpected is a d
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i love Emily
she is so innocent and sweet and thinks drugs are like bad erasers, they kinda swirl shit around but don't take anything off the paper, they in fact make the paper even more fucked-up.
so this is why i write, because i figured i'd contribute to WAAT
she is so innocent and sweet and thinks drugs are like bad erasers, they kinda swirl shit around but don't take anything off the paper, they in fact make the paper even more fucked-up.
so this is why i write, because i figured i'd contribute to WAAT
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This is great. Amazing...Because of the thoughts and feelings expressed I feel like I could have written this, but never in the same quality of language. Great writing. I can't really pick a favorite part, but I really like how the question is answered to fit the different people who could ask, showing all sides of the writer's passion/therapy and his relationships with his work and the people in his life. I can really relate to this.